I'm stressed out. I haven't been able to focus on any of my personal projects lately and I think it's just because I've mentally and emotionally overbooked myself. Right now even I've got writer's block. So much to say yet I can't even focus my thoughts enough to form paragraphs or sentences so this is going to be an A.D.D. like rambling tonight. I've been keeping to my marathon training schedule for the most part although I'm a little worried about how I'm going to train when I'm in Milwaukee on vacation next week. Supposed to do a 17-18 miler while I'm out there. I didn't go to Masters at all last week. Set my alarm every morning and kept hitting snooze for 3 hours until I HAD to get up for work. Tonight I had my friend Joni stop over and my original plan was to do my short run after she left but now I'm on my butt here in front of the computer. Basically typing just because it's been so long since I've written to my blog. I've been thinking about doing this too for days but every time I think about taking time to write, it feels like work and I just don't do it. Work is so intense lately with too many projects going at once. I mean I'm good at multi-tasking but I think it's just making my stressed out A.D.D-like brain get that much more frazzled. There's just so much for me to say right now but I can't focus long enough to pull together everything I want to say. So likely I'll sign off, grab my big hot chocolate to thoroughly blow my calorie intake for another day and set my butt in front of the TV until it's late enough I can excuse myself to bed. I can't figure out how to get out of this funk and get stuff done. Some of you may have noticed I renamed my blog. I'm blowing days of my life doing nothing when I have all these things that I've said I want to do. But every time I have a chance to work on something....I work on nothing. Ugh.......
So I leave this entry frustrated. And that's all I can really say
2 comments:
I of all people know we have our ups and our downs. You've been with me on some of them. The hopelessness that results from all of that seems like it never ends and as things keep piling up, it gets worse.
I hear you. Here's what I suggest. Take a few days off from work. On those days, don't exercise. Go do something you never usually do. Spend the day at MoA just people watching. Get some tea from Teavana and make fun of the weirdo's.
Or take a nice walk in a part of the metro you've never been.
You've got a lot going for you and you're a superstar in every way I know you!
Things'll turn around.
Hang in there Kris. I know it's frustrating, but you'll get through it!
Post a Comment