Finding Focus

Hello all. Don't worry I didn't forget about you. Just kinda been all over the place, mentally, emotionally and physically. A quick catch up on a few things. I'm closing on my new townhouse next Friday. I've been pretty excited about that but it some ways it could be heart-breaking for me. (Details on that to be left out). Work has been....just work. I wish I could spill my heart on that one but I don't feel comfortable doing that on a public blog. I've got back luck ya know :-P

I've still been swimming 2-3x per week and trying to do cardio whenever I feel like it really. I've been lifting about once a week even though I had good intentions of that being 3x per week. There's a little evil part of my mind telling me how horrible I am and now lazy of a human being I have been for the past month and a half but there's a louder part of my mind that says I can just do whatever I feel like doing without any guilt until January. Then the road to Iron REALLY begins :)

But my main topic tonight is on something that has really started to bother me lately. I don't really know how or when it started but honestly I have NO focus. I swear it's like I've developed A.D.D. and it keeps me from being able to concentrate on one thing at a time. Maybe not a big deal in some respect but I think it's keeping me from absorbing information. I can't sit through a work meeting and remember most of what's said. Or when they ask me a question, I really wasn't listening so I'm like "I'm sorry what did you ask?" Embarrassing!!! Plus I have this really good book I am trying to read but I can't make it a few sentences without my mind going elsewhere. I even tried to read the words slower and sometimes 2x but I still can't get my mind to clear out and do one thing at a time.

Like I don't have enough to work on on a personal level already...but this too? Do I need to be drugged? Thoughts and opinions greatly appreciated :)