WOW I can't even tell you how incredible it was to get to watch Ms. R and Captain Cartwheel race and successfully complete the Madison Ironman. I got so nervous and excited to see them come into sight at every watch point I just screamed and jumped up and down when they came into view. Im sure the smile faded back in the "lonely" areas of the course but they both had big smiles every time we saw them and partied their way through the finishing shoot. That's what I call a successful finish! I love you girls, you are now and forever IRONMEN!
Which leads me to where most of my blogs will likely go for the next oh.... 368 days. Yeah I'm registered for next year. Many of you that have been following my ups and downs are likely wondering, as I am myself, how in the livin' hell am I going to mentally stay sane and not suffocate myself underneath the nearest pillow during the training for this? Answer.....I have no idea. Hopefully with my other "Ironmen in Training", they can help me stay on track and upright and maybe I can try to find a good therapist to mentally and physically medicate me!
Whether I like it or not, I have to start back to swim tomorrow morning. I haven't swam in I think a month. I hit a low period after my last tri and haven't been on my bike or swam since. Partially because #1 - my mind is now completely focused on the marathon and #2 - because I'm letting #1 be a big excuse. I was emailing with the Master's swim coach and I told him I'd be there tomorrow so now that I did that, I feel like I have to go. Kind of like tonight with my trainer, I was REALLY not wanting to go but since I put it on my calendar and said "yes" again earlier today, I HAD to go. Glad I did but if I was given any excuse to get out of it, I would have used it. This slump is killing me and I spend a lot of my time trying to figure how to get out of it.
Work has been a big stressor for me lately, among other personal struggles. But today at work I really feel like I got beat up and in a really unfair way. I always feel like I do a good job, now always a "super star" but I get my work done and never leave people hanging and besically today I was told that "someone" told my boss I was difficult to get ahold of and not getting things done. My jaw hit the floor and I was pissed. So we'll cut this off there and just say that threw my day into the crapper.
On a happy note, I did manage to pound out 15 miles with Dana and Jon Saturday morning before hurrying over to Home for Life to visit my beautiful little Olive. If you visit the cat page from their main page, her story is on there. But if you are a BIG animal lover like me, don't read the other stories without a full tissue box next to you. I just re-read a few of my favorite cat's stories and dang it now I'm a mess. They take such wonderful care of all the animals there and all of the animals seem so happy to be there but how they got there is sometimes an unbearably heartbreaking story!
Well I think that's enough for now, off to bed and hopefully tomorrow I will report back a swim and a run made it's way into my Thursday :)
My Adventures In Training, Racing and Life
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